Thank you, all, for your very kind and supportive comments, which are having a salutary effect on my brainmeats, I can assure you. By way of a further update, let me just say that yes, I probably should have cut that first pill in half, as the unexpected three and a half hour nap I collapsed into shortly after hitting 'send' was no joke. It's a fortunate coincidence that for other health reasons I have recently decreased my overall alcohol consumption, so there was nothing else in my system to further complicate the nap.
As you are well aware both Teresa and I are avid believers in Better Living Through Chemistry, and you have all our sympathy and support. I felt every single beat of this "I'm not sure I have the nerve to go through with this so I'm going to write my way directly to the precipice and now I'm there and" narrative.
That newsletter came out of nowhere, I must have subscribed .. forever ago (read: pre-covid) but it was an amazing read and instantly reminded me why your books were my favourites. I still remember how Pat Rothfuss doing a (overly humble) comparison of his and your first book sold me on Locke and also, sneakily, made me pay attention to what the book was best at (cursing! haha). Although it was just a newsletter it also was a story of struggle, failure and hope and probably looking forward to how to protagonist in this story gets himself out of trouble as I am excited to do the same with Locke. All the best, you will pull through! Cheers from Germany!
I just finished reading this and although I don't even know you personnaly, I feel SO proud of you. GO SCOTT, GO. We're all supporting you in this fight!!
It always makes me happy to see people actively trying to fix their anxiety problems with therapy and medication! My older brother needs both of those in spades and, for most of his life, has been to embarrassed to reach out for help. Like you, he has recently chosen to try and better his quality of life by seeking out that help. Best wishes, Scott!
I'm lucky that I don't have to live with either, but I am married to a man who has lived with both. Help can only be a good thing. His advice, for what it's worth, is to find the magical balance with drugs of how you know you should feel to be yourself on a good day and avoiding the numbness that those drugs can bring. @ilya Popov "TEAM LYNCH"! I love it!!
I am so pleased you're making this choice, and so sorry that you must. As a fellow anxiety-haver, allow me to share a song written by one of my favorite indie musicians facing the same situation? https://youtu.be/pXZIjRAAntM
I’m so incredibly happy for you. You have so many people who are pulling for you. You are brave. You are human. Sending you tons and tons of love and hugs.
I can't tell you how wonderful it is to hear that voice again, in the context of Scott-the-author. While I've enjoyed the tweets, the tenor and voice of this newsletter brought about a wonderful moment that was a mix of reverie and nostalgia. I'm hooked, again.
Baffling, this newsletter. Scott, without a doubt, all 3 installments of the Gentleman Bastards series are among the best pieces of fantasy literature I've ever read, and I have every confidence that I will enjoy the upcoming installments just as much. I hope that your medication gives you the foundation you need for a long and happy life, and a lot of interesting fantasy novels on the side :)
Came across this Newsletter in my once-every-few-months check for Fantasy and RPG updates, and just want to say I’m proud of you for both writing and publishing it. These battles require courage and so many ‘big leaps’ through discomfort on an almost hourly basis and every writer/artist/creator knows how terrifying (and rewarding) it is to share you work with a friend, colleague, or writing circle—even without relentless anxiety episodes. I sympathize and believe in you. I can wait and hope for the vault to open its doors, but the empathy comes first. You are kicking a whole ass with each step you take—even those ones that feel like they’re going in the wrong direction never truly are. Sending love, sir.
Thank you, all, for your very kind and supportive comments, which are having a salutary effect on my brainmeats, I can assure you. By way of a further update, let me just say that yes, I probably should have cut that first pill in half, as the unexpected three and a half hour nap I collapsed into shortly after hitting 'send' was no joke. It's a fortunate coincidence that for other health reasons I have recently decreased my overall alcohol consumption, so there was nothing else in my system to further complicate the nap.
As you are well aware both Teresa and I are avid believers in Better Living Through Chemistry, and you have all our sympathy and support. I felt every single beat of this "I'm not sure I have the nerve to go through with this so I'm going to write my way directly to the precipice and now I'm there and" narrative.
That newsletter came out of nowhere, I must have subscribed .. forever ago (read: pre-covid) but it was an amazing read and instantly reminded me why your books were my favourites. I still remember how Pat Rothfuss doing a (overly humble) comparison of his and your first book sold me on Locke and also, sneakily, made me pay attention to what the book was best at (cursing! haha). Although it was just a newsletter it also was a story of struggle, failure and hope and probably looking forward to how to protagonist in this story gets himself out of trouble as I am excited to do the same with Locke. All the best, you will pull through! Cheers from Germany!
I just finished reading this and although I don't even know you personnaly, I feel SO proud of you. GO SCOTT, GO. We're all supporting you in this fight!!
Sending so much love and hope to you. Meds can make a world of difference, and you deserve peace in your brain and recognition for your work.
It always makes me happy to see people actively trying to fix their anxiety problems with therapy and medication! My older brother needs both of those in spades and, for most of his life, has been to embarrassed to reach out for help. Like you, he has recently chosen to try and better his quality of life by seeking out that help. Best wishes, Scott!
Wishing nothing but good energy. It's nice when you begin to see sunlight between the clouds.
I'm lucky that I don't have to live with either, but I am married to a man who has lived with both. Help can only be a good thing. His advice, for what it's worth, is to find the magical balance with drugs of how you know you should feel to be yourself on a good day and avoiding the numbness that those drugs can bring. @ilya Popov "TEAM LYNCH"! I love it!!
I am so pleased you're making this choice, and so sorry that you must. As a fellow anxiety-haver, allow me to share a song written by one of my favorite indie musicians facing the same situation? https://youtu.be/pXZIjRAAntM
I’m so incredibly happy for you. You have so many people who are pulling for you. You are brave. You are human. Sending you tons and tons of love and hugs.
I can't tell you how wonderful it is to hear that voice again, in the context of Scott-the-author. While I've enjoyed the tweets, the tenor and voice of this newsletter brought about a wonderful moment that was a mix of reverie and nostalgia. I'm hooked, again.
I feel for you. Anxiety is a razor-sharp bitch, and even when the bleeding's all internal, it hurts like hell. I hope the medication helps.
Sending all good thoughts and wishes.
Hell, that is good to read. Full support from a French reader now livin' the dream in MA!
Baffling, this newsletter. Scott, without a doubt, all 3 installments of the Gentleman Bastards series are among the best pieces of fantasy literature I've ever read, and I have every confidence that I will enjoy the upcoming installments just as much. I hope that your medication gives you the foundation you need for a long and happy life, and a lot of interesting fantasy novels on the side :)
Came across this Newsletter in my once-every-few-months check for Fantasy and RPG updates, and just want to say I’m proud of you for both writing and publishing it. These battles require courage and so many ‘big leaps’ through discomfort on an almost hourly basis and every writer/artist/creator knows how terrifying (and rewarding) it is to share you work with a friend, colleague, or writing circle—even without relentless anxiety episodes. I sympathize and believe in you. I can wait and hope for the vault to open its doors, but the empathy comes first. You are kicking a whole ass with each step you take—even those ones that feel like they’re going in the wrong direction never truly are. Sending love, sir.